Thursday, April 30, 2009
1st May 2009, Friday ll
5:44 PM ll
COUNTING DOWN:
29 DAYS TO THREEZEROFIVE! (:
REVEALING TO YOU SOON. xD
WATCH OUT FOR THAT DAY!
HAPPY LABOUR'S DAY!
30th April 2009, Thursday ll
12:32 AM ll
COUNTING DOWN:
30 DAYS TO THREEZEROFIVE! (:REVEALING TO YOU SOON. xD
WATCH OUT FOR THAT DAY!
GOD loves you! (:
Saturday, April 25, 2009
25th April 2009, Saturday ll
7:16 AM ll
i shall not write any dates here anymore. hahas. well, today had zone service. i was very surprised with the number of people who came today.. it was like.. wad happen to zone 6? last year, there were alot of people and now.. well.. it's very normal to have this kind of thing happen to our zone. other zones should also have experienced it before. this year is a time of crossing over rite? i believe God is preparing us for something even better in time to come. agree? (:
hey justina! i notice our new style of communication has changed. -.- from talking on phone, to going out, to writing letters, to msn-ing and now this. isn't it amazing? hahas. and apology accepted. just make sure you treat me drink water next time. xD wakakakas. how has life go? great? i think so.. well, actually i dunno wad to say lers.. cause you say you got no interest in studying.. well.. there's no point forcing you, rite? i hope you know the choices you made and not take the wrong choice. it's all about choices, yeah? if you take the wrong path, your life is messed up. if you took the right path, there you are, going through life smoothly. let's hope you make the right choice. (:
hey, i miss the times with you girl.. guess wad? i've been feeling quite lonely sometimes.. i just dunno why.. and also stress.. sometimes, i just feel, well, no one is talking to me.. i'm just.. alone.. and sometimes when i talk to people properly, they will just like "wad lah?" i dunno wad's wrong with them sia.. sometimes, i keep wondering, why can't they talk to me properly like how they talk to other people? i dun get it. i'm also a human, like hello? i simply just dun get it.. sometimes, even though, i have friends in class.. but i do feel lonely.. sometimes, if li en never come school.. joey will go and pei ju hui, leaving me all alone in class.. i dunno wad to say.. then i'll be like.. all alone with no one to talk to.. sometimes, i really feel like breaking out.. but i dun wan as i'm in the class.. i dun wan the people to know.. so i'll just act normal and stuff.. even though i keep going out in their group, but seriously, i just feel left out.. i feel left out everytime.. sometimes, i think i really feel left out even in the group i'm closest to.. i really feel so lonely at times, but i really didn't want to show anyone.. i dunno wad to do anymore.. hais..
i've also been feeling stress ever since N level exams are nearing. how how? i want to go sec 5, but i've got no confidence, in maths especially.. i've been trying to cope in maths already.. but can't.. and because of this reason, i get moodswing.. i get moody, angry, sad very easily.. i really dunno how to destress already.. i can explode anytime.. wad should i do..well that's all i have to tell you. hahas. i've been thinking of making a secret blog which only me and you knows. and put it private of course. hahas. when i make, i'll tell you bahs..
that's all.
byes!(:
Thursday, April 23, 2009
23rd April 2009, Thursday ll
7:27 AM ll
23rd April 2009, Thursday
i'm currently feeling very very stressed out.. i think i can break down anytime, anywhere.. i've been trying so hard to catch up with my maths this year (the subject i hated most!).. my f&n coursework.. minimum 30 pages.. currently, i only had 11 pages.. how to add on? research, 6 pages.. sometimes, i really thought of dropping f&n..
YESTERDAYi broke down in class during my social studies class.. the whole class thought that it's the teacher's fault.. but it's not.. -.-.. it's really not the teacher's fault.. i'm really really very stressed out already.. i dunno wad else to do.. the teacher even apologised to me, FOR NO REASON.. i should be the one apologising to the teacher instead for throwing tantrum at him.. i've been really really stressed up already.. especially with my maths and f&n.. i dunno wad else can i do.. can anyone please give me some suggestions on how to destress??
if i suddenly break down somewhere, or throwing tantrum at you, then i'm sorry.. i shall say sorry in advance incase this kind of thing really happens. i can't control my own emotions now..
God, please help me.. i really needed Your help.. hais..
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
22nd April 2009, Wednesday ll
12:01 AM ll
22nd April 2009, Wednesday
i shall start my post with a letter to someone. i hope she'll be able to see it. i shall not say the person's name.
hey, i hope that you'll be able to catch this letter wrote by me. these are wad i wanted to say to you. everytime when i wanted to say this to you, you didn't come school. and even if you come school, i dunno how to start.. hais.. quite a lot of times, i wanted to say, i'm disappointed in you.. firstly for not coming school.. i know that you hate studying, to the max. i understand.. but you said before that you want to score good results.. during the starting of the first term, you were okay.. wad happen? you said you liked maths at the start.. but why.. you dun understand, i can help you.. why give up? secondly, you said you wanted to quit smoking.. ever since last year.. but until now.. i still see you smoking.. i really dunno wad to say.. sometimes, i really wanted to just shout all this STRAIGHT IN YOUR FACE.. but i couldn't.. because you are my BFF.. and i know you wouldn't want to listen to all this nagging.. so i decide to write it here..
hey.. i really want to help you.. but you must give me a chance to. a lot of peopel wants to help you, you must give them a chance to help you.. i wanted the help, but i know you needed it more than me.. a lot of people is helping you. dun give up in your studies and all, okay? i really want to see a newly changed you.. i'm very happy that you said you wanted Christ is your life.. Well, He is in your life.. but you must open up your heart to Him.. He can help you, i know He can, but you must allow Him to go into your life to help you and willing to seek Him.. i won't force you coming to cell and all, cause it's all your choice.. but, i really want to help you.. you can find me anytime, okay?
you might be thinking in your mind now, like "hey, it's my life, why should you bother?" or maybe say "yucks, too mushy for me to take it." or something.. i wouldn't know wad you'll be thinking, but hey, all these things comes from the bottom of my heart.. really... i really hope you'll be able to read this..well.. the letter ends here.. i hope that the person whom i want to send this letter to will be able to read it.. well.. that's all..
BYE~
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
1st April 2009, Wednesday ll
6:46 AM ll
1st April 2009, Wednesday
hi people, happy april fool's day. not having a good time today.. dun wish to talk much though.. hais.. not in the mood to post anything.. end here lers..
